I have been making so many more good decisions. The times I have made a poor choice...I tried to follow it up with a good choice the next time. For example, in the past after I have weighed-in I have had a tendency to "treat myself" (code for - eat whatever I want then try to get it reined back in before I think it will start to show up on the next weigh-in.) Yesterday, I debated all morning if I was going to eat out for lunch or eat the lunch I had brought. I had actually planned for this lunch I brought to be a bit of a treat - a snacky cheese plate kinda lunch. I didn't count up the calories, but looking at the plate I feel pretty good about it. The splurge was the cream cheese with pepper onion relish.
Part of what pushed me to eat the lunch I brought is that I knew my husband wanted to order pizza last night. He is starting a weight loss competition today and wanted "one last pizza." I knew I could limit how much pizza I ate, but his favorite place has super cheesy pizza and even a couple of pieces is an extra caloric investment.
The other day I wasn't hungry by my usual lunch time, so I went to do errands before eating lunch. By the time I was finished errands, you guessed it, I was starving. Instead, of grabbing fast food I picked out one of my favorite frozen dinners - Smart Ones Tuna Casserole. I am not sure why it is a favorite, but it has been ever since I was in Weight Watchers trying to lose weight back in my 20s. It hit the spot for way less calories than fast food.
Speaking of fast food. This no-eating in the car thing is tough. I don't think I realized how much I ate in the car or how much I think about eating while in the car. I know I have used the car to hide what I eat in the past. Hopefully, by the time I am finally allowed to eat in our new car I will have broken some seriously bad habits. In the meantime, I am driving the "okay-to-eat-in" car today. I am going to need some extra strength!
Speaking of choices...why is it that when we are making poor choices in our diet, we don't let the funky feeling it ends up giving us push us to make better choices? It is almost like I don't know that the way I am eating is dragging me down until I start eating better again. Even though I have been through that cycle a gazillion times. I feel like I have to eat well first and then it is "oh I like this feeling better when I eat better." I am determined to work on this area. One observation I have made is that it seems eating more sweets increases my general pain levels. When I discussed it with my doctor doesn't seem to agree that is true, but if my body is telling me otherwise...I need to make some adjustments. Chronic pain stinks.
I have been swept up by all the blogs I read that have mention reading more as a new year's goal. I love to read, but in recent years I have only read a handful of books. Truth is my eyes have become "old lady eyes" and it makes it more difficult to read without bright light. Getting new glasses needs to go on my to-do list, right? The pain in my hands also makes it difficult to hold books for a long time. My husband bought me a Kindle which helps with the holding and I can make the print larger, but I don't want to have to buy all the books. I was so excited about reading again I bought a "bargain" book for $2 on my Kindle the other night, A Love Most Dangerous, but this particular book is not working for me. I don't care for the writing style and I don't much care for the main character yet. I am a big fan of historical fiction, especially related to King Henry VIII's era, which reminds me I should see if Philippa Gregory has anything new out.
About 10 years ago when I was unemployed for a year, I decided to apply at a local library just for part-time work and to explore if library work was something I would like. I had toyed for awhile with going back for my masters in library science. I ended up working at this library for about two years (continuing after I had found a full-time job). I work in the same town as "my" library, so I went over on my lunch break to check out a few things.