What Am I Thinking?

I am definitely doing a happy dance that there were still some readers out there. Thank you for the kind comments. I know my issues are common to many of us and it is always good to feel your empathy. Just don't forget the occasional kick in the pants I need too.

Today I took a yummy snack to work - lots of raw veggies and hummus. As I was preparing it this morning, I really was looking forward to eating it with something from my freezer stash at work. Guess where it is now...yep, in the fridge at work. This week (both days so far) have been stressful at work. Today I just had to get away for a bit and ended up getting pizza and a brownie. Not my best decision, but I am not giving up on the day. I ate a reasonable dinner (later than my husband because I wasn't hungry yet).  I had planned to take a walk at lunch to the post office, but in my eagerness to get away from work I hopped in my car instead.

The crazy thing is that I feel like I am too stressed to workout (walk).  Yet I know without a doubt that it would make me feel better. Why don't I just do what I need to do?!??!  I think it is supposed to rain tomorrow, but I am going to keep my eye on the sky. I want to be able to report to you that I took at least a quick walk :)

I've been thinking quite a bit lately about what I really want to do with my life. For the most part I like my job, but not as much as I used to. I want to be doing something I really love with people I enjoy, but I can't seem to narrow down what that is. Perhaps my passions have been tempered by self doubt, so they never quite had a chance to bloom. I never really thought about it like that until I just wrote that sentence. Definitely worth pondering.

One of my friends (in our ladies' group) is blowing me away with all that she has on her plate right now. I definitely can not use the excuse that I don't have time to pursue goals and accomplish them. She is training for a marathon (that I will see her run in less than two weeks!), writing a book (I am currently reading a draft of it), adjusting to a work promotion, and raising twin (preschool) boys! I know she has her doubts too, yet she is doing her thing...really doing it! I don't advocate comparing yourself to others, but taking inspiration is a good thing. Obviously, I like writing or I wouldn't be a blogger (nearing my third anniversary of this blog!) My brother has always encouraged me to write children's stories. I seem to be afraid to try not matter how many times he tells me he sees the potential in my writing and photography. I've decided to do a little brainstorming on that front to see if there might be a story or two in my brain.

I just remembered a post I read awhile back on Little More Each Day about reverse bucket lists. Basically, instead of focusing on the things you haven't done, it is a list of things you have done. A reminder or celebration of sorts for the things you have already accomplished in your life. I think that could be a very good exercise for me.

An area I have been working on recently is when I think about doing something nice for someone actually following through. For example, taking a meal to a friend who had surgery or dropping off milk and cookies at the local volunteer fire department. I did both of those things this weekend. Not only did I feel good about seeing them enjoy it, but I got to enjoy cooking and baking without the guilt of eating all the goodies myself.

That is more pondering than I planned to write about tonight, but there it is.  And since I can't complete a post without at least one picture. I will share this one I found on Facebook after my cookie delivery...it definitely had me smiling.  "Our Department is so lucky to have such a great community to serve. Today a lady stopped by to drop off a gallon of milk and a pan of chocolate chip cookies to say thank you for what we do. We really do love to serve our community. Thank You!!!!!"