I need to feel good about myself where I am. I have good qualities and I don't need a stupid pair of pants to constantly tell me how bad I am. I am not sure that I completely buy into the idea that you are who you are and you are should be completely happy or satisfied with that. I think there is a fine line between loving myself as a person (no matter your size) and embracing a size fueled by what I know is an unhealthy lifestyle. The truth is, my being significantly overweight is not good for my overall health - physical or emotional.
I admit buying a bigger size of pants was not a pleasant experience. I felt ashamed as I shopped. On the plus side (no pun intended), I didn't need to go up two sizes :) And even though I was embarrassed that I am even in this predicament, I knew immediately when I slid those pants on in the dressing room that I was doing the right thing. I need to be in a positive place to believe that I really can do the things I need to do to lose weight again and become healthier.
So far now I am pulling on my big girl pants and working to change my frame of mind so I can change the frame of my body.
In related news...
|Having non-buyer's remorse. I saw this tin sign at Hobby Lobby the other day and did not buy it...now I want it even more.|
In unrelated news...
On the same shopping trip when I didn't buy the above picture, I saw a couple of things that make me say "hmmm..."
Flannel fabric. I was looking for baby blanket flannel...probably not appropriate for my purpose. Which begs the question...for what purpose would it be appropriate?
And hand statues just creep me out. I guess the idea is that this "bowl" will hold your stuff. Yikes~
I am linking with Weigh In Wednesday today, although I am not reporting a loss/gain. I forgot where I was when I weighed last, so this is restart weigh-in for me. Next week...